Eighteen Months of Madness in the Heart of Hollywood. The ex-Beatle’s wildest period yet – sex, booze, and Rock’n’Roll excess that nearly destroyed a legend.

Right, so you think you know John Lennon? The peaceful Beatle, the ‘Bed-In’ revolutionary, the bloke who gave us “Imagine”? Well, think again, because between October 1973 and early 1975, our John went completely barmy in Los Angeles – and we do mean completely. They’re calling it his “Lost Weekend,” though at eighteen months, it’s more like a lost year and a half.

It all started when Yoko threw him out of their Dakota apartment. Yes, you heard right – she actually booted him out, told him to go find himself or some such psychological bollocks. “Go away and have your midlife crisis somewhere else,” was apparently the gist of it. So off trots Lennon to La-La Land with May Pang, Yoko’s 23-year-old assistant, who’d been hand-picked by Mrs Lennon herself to keep an eye on her wayward husband.

What followed was a period of such spectacular debauchery that even Keith Moon would’ve raised an eyebrow. Lennon, aged 33 and supposedly a reformed character, promptly went completely off the rails in the most American way possible.

First stop was a beach house in Santa Monica that quickly became legendary for all the wrong reasons. Lennon surrounded himself with a motley crew of musicians, hangers-on, and fellow piss heads who turned the place into something resembling a Rock’n’Roll commune crossed with a rehabilitation centre – except nobody was trying to get clean.

The core gang included Harry Nilsson (already well on his way to drinking himself to death), Ringo Starr (taking a break from his own marriage difficulties), Keith Moon (just because), and a rotating cast of session musicians, groupies, and general wastrels. They called themselves “The Hollywood Vampires” – which tells you everything you need to know about their priorities.

Days would start around noon with cocaine and brandy, move on to more serious drinking by mid-afternoon, and end with everyone unconscious in various compromising positions around dawn. Lennon, who’d supposedly given up the hard stuff years earlier, was necking everything he could get his hands on – whisky, vodka, tequila, you name it. The man who once sang about peace and love was now starting fights in nightclubs and getting thrown out of venues across Los Angeles.

The nadir came in March 1974 at the Troubadour club, where Lennon and Nilsson had gone to catch an Ann Peebles show. Both absolutely legless, they proceeded to heckle the poor woman throughout her set. When staff tried to quiet them down, Lennon apparently shouted something unrepeatable about the management’s parentage and stormed off to the toilets.

But here’s where it gets properly weird – instead of using the gents, our revolutionary hero decided to relieve himself in a cupboard, emerging with a sanitary towel stuck to his forehead like some demented tribal marking. The press had a field day, of course. “BEATLE JOHN’S TOILET SCANDAL” screamed the headlines, and suddenly the man who’d once been the most respected musician in the world was reduced to a laughing stock.

The incident became symbolic of everything wrong with Lennon’s LA period. Here was a bloke who’d written some of the most important songs of the decade, reduced to pissing in cupboards and wearing feminine hygiene products as headgear. It was pathetic, really.

Amazingly, amidst all this chaos, Lennon was still trying to make music. The problem was, he was too pissed most of the time to do it properly. Recording sessions for what would become “Walls and Bridges” were exercises in frustration, with Lennon turning up hours late, completely bladdered, and unable to remember lyrics he’d written the day before.

Producer Jack Douglas later described the sessions as “like trying to record with a very talented ghost who kept disappearing.” Lennon would start a take, wander off mid-song, and return hours later having forgotten what they were working on. It’s a miracle the album turned out as well as it did.

The saving grace was May Pang, who somehow managed to keep some semblance of order in the chaos. Twenty years younger than Lennon and completely out of her depth, she nevertheless became his anchor during this period. She’d drag him out of bars, clean him up for recording sessions, and generally prevent him from killing himself through sheer stupidity.

If you want to know how mental things got, consider this: Lennon thought it would be a brilliant idea to record an album of Rock’n’Roll covers with Phil Spector producing. Yes, that Phil Spector – the gun-toting maniac who was already showing signs of the complete breakdown that would later land him in prison for murder.

The sessions, held at various LA studios throughout 1974, were legendary for their dysfunction. Spector would turn up armed (literally), paranoid, and completely controlling. Lennon, meanwhile, was usually drunk and belligerent. The two would spend hours arguing about arrangements while session musicians sat around collecting overtime pay.

One session ended with Spector firing a gun in the studio and then disappearing with the master tapes, leaving Lennon with nothing to show for weeks of work. It was like something out of a Martin Scorsese film, except it was real life and nobody was laughing.

The thing is, beneath all the chaos and self-destruction, you could sense Lennon was actually quite miserable. This wasn’t the joyful excess of a rock star living it up – this was the desperate flailing of a man who’d lost his way completely.

Friends from the period describe him as paranoid, lonely, and increasingly aware that he was making a complete tit of himself. The press coverage was universally awful, his music was suffering, and worst of all, he was alienating himself from the son he claimed to love more than anything.

Julian was still back in England with Cynthia, and Lennon’s contact with the boy was sporadic at best. When he did ring, he was often too drunk to hold a proper conversation. It’s heartbreaking, really – here was a man who’d sung about love and peace, completely unable to maintain relationships with the people who mattered most to him.

The long and winding road back… By late 1974, even Lennon’s legendary constitution was showing signs of wear. He’d put on weight, looked terrible in photos, and was developing a reputation as one of Hollywood’s most unreliable talents. Studio executives were starting to avoid him, club owners were banning him, and his behaviour was becoming genuinely concerning to those around him.

The wake-up call came when he collapsed during a recording session, apparently from exhaustion and alcohol poisoning. Rushed to hospital, he spent several days recovering while doctors told him in no uncertain terms that his lifestyle was unsustainable.

It was then that May Pang apparently sat him down for a serious conversation about his future. According to those close to the situation, she basically told him he could continue on his current path and probably die, or he could sort himself out and try to salvage something from the wreckage of his life.

The irony is that throughout this entire period, Lennon was in regular contact with Yoko back in New York. She’d ring him every few days, ostensibly to check on his wellbeing but apparently also to monitor his behaviour. Some cynics suggest the whole “Lost Weekend” was orchestrated by Yoko from the beginning – a way of letting Lennon get all his middle-aged rebellion out of his system while keeping him on a very long leash.

Whether that’s true or not, by early 1975 it was clear that Lennon was ready to return to New York and his wife. The LA experiment had run its course, leaving behind a trail of damaged relationships, wasted opportunities, and some genuinely questionable musical decisions.

But here’s the thing – as much as the Lost Weekend period was a disaster in human terms, it also produced some of Lennon’s most honest and vulnerable music. “Walls and Bridges” contains some genuinely affecting songs about loneliness and regret, while the eventually completed “Rock’n’Roll” album, despite its troubled genesis, showed Lennon reconnecting with his musical roots in ways that would influence his later work.

So what do we make of John Lennon’s Lost Weekend? Was it a necessary period of self-exploration, or just eighteen months of expensive self-indulgence? The truth, as usual, probably lies somewhere in between.

On one hand, it’s hard to have much sympathy for a millionaire rock star whose idea of finding himself involves drinking himself senseless in beach houses while his assistant-turned-girlfriend cleans up after him. The whole thing reeks of middle-class privilege and self-pity taken to absurd extremes.

On the other hand, there’s something genuinely tragic about watching one of the most important artists of his generation lose himself so completely. Lennon’s music had always been about honesty and emotional truth, and in some perverse way, his LA breakdown was probably the most honest thing he’d done in years.

The period also demonstrated something important about the nature of creativity and self-destruction in rock music. While the myth of the tortured artist is largely bollocks, there’s no denying that some of our greatest musicians have produced their most powerful work while falling apart personally. Lennon’s Lost Weekend wasn’t pleasant to witness, but it was undeniably real in a way that his more controlled periods sometimes weren’t.

Perhaps most importantly, it showed that even John Lennon – the man who’d helped change popular music forever – was still fundamentally human, still capable of making spectacular mistakes and learning from them. The fact that he eventually sorted himself out, returned to New York, and spent his final years as a devoted father and husband suggests that the Lost Weekend, for all its chaos, might have been a necessary part of his journey.

Whether it was worth eighteen months of madness is another question entirely. But then again, that’s Rock’n’Roll for you – never simple, never clean, and never quite what you expect from the outside.

Whatever gets you thru the night eh?

*The author wishes to acknowledge that this piece is based on publicly available information and interviews from the period, and that some details remain disputed by those involved.

#nowplaying John Lennon – Walls and Bridges (1974)